I am so glad May is over because tomorrow begins my birthday month. June is going to be fun: swim lessons, VBS, and we are going to Tampa for my birthday (to see the aquarium and go on a boat tour). I have always had a thing for marine life. My favorite theme park ever, ever, ever is Sea World. I would rather go there than Disney any day. I hope the Morgans will still speak to me.
I am feeling sort of odd today. I left Dave and the kids at home and stayed the night at my Mom's house to take care of her dogs. My stepdad is in the hospital (it's prostate related) and is really very sick. I brought my scrapbooking stuff and worked on some layouts late into the night. I thought I will finally get some sleep, but the little shi tzus kept me awake, and then woke me up bright and early (o'dark thirty as my Dad would say). I really am not as fond as dogs as I used to be. Maybe if my mom had pet dolphins or sea turtles I would be more tolerant.
Anyways, I really just feel disconnected from life today. Like I am half here or something. I guess I have been really sick lately, a bad sinus infection, then a fever that led to a chest x-ray and a diagnosis of bronchitis, a second round of antibiotics, and then I had a bladder infection for well over a week, including my trip to DC for my brother's wedding. Add my monthly cycle onto that (Chris, do you really read this????) and my normal 500 aches and pains, and you can imagine that I have been difficult to live with. I have not felt well or slep well for so many months in a row now that I am just getting worn down. I just can't cope with my children. They annoy me so much more than they should. Everyone else seems to think they are so darling.
Dave got a horrible sunburn, blisters and all and for some reason I am taking it very personally, and am convinced that I am a failure as a wife.
My Uncle Jim used to call me Sunshine when he was alive. It was sort of a joke between us, because I have never been very sunny, or shiny. But he loved me anyways, and hopefully other people can tolerate me also. Namely Dave. Poor, poor sunburned Dave with a whiny space cadet as a wife. Sigh. Woe is me, woe is me. There really is not any good way to end this.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
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Hello Jamie,
Of course I read it. It is the one website I visit from work.
We are all on your side. We know you feel run down. We felt run down after your kids left our house and we only had a limited time with them. Children are very demanding. Your children are very smart and they have learned how to get everything thing they want immediately. That has to be exhausting.
But most all kids end up as grown ups. They will be fine. Just keep doing the best you can. You will make it.
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