Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Am I only dreaming?

Last night Dave had band practice. I fell asleep with the kids after reading to them. We were reading a book about a panda bear and I stupidly told them about Mao-Mao, the panda bear that was killed in the earthquake in China. This led to my fumbling explanation about death and earthquakes and heaven, which the kids listened to with furrowed brows and disturbed expressions. This whole conversation was made worse by the fact that we had just seen Kung Fu Panda, and the kids are in love with panda bears right now, and also that it was thundering outside, and they were both having considerable anxiety about the storm. Every year, we have to get used to the summer storms again. They both wanted Daddy to be home because they feel safer when he's home (and to be honest, so do I).
Anna kept saying but that teddy bear not supposed to die and saying she did not like heaven and never wanted to go there. Jonathan wanted a scientific explanation of exactly what is an earthquake. I could not satisfy either of them with anything I said.
So, finally we all fell asleep. The next thing I knew, it was 12:30 and I was so confused. I stumbled into our bedroom and saw that Dave had made it home okay, and he was asleep. I went to the kitchen to get a drink of water, and I saw the most wonderful thing on the counter: a bag of dark chocolate peanut M&Ms. I ate them all in my sleepy state, standing in the kitchen for a few minutes and then pouring the contents out in my hand and eating the rest in bed, before falling asleep without (gasp!) brushing my teeth again.
I woke up this morning and really thought that this had all been a dream. I told myself, dark chocolate peanut M&Ms? Who has ever heard of such a thing? I could only wish. And when I went to the kitchen and did not see the empty bag on the counter I was convinced that I had been dreaming.
I moved a dishtowel later on, and there it was! An empty purple bag of M&Ms. I felt both disgusted and relieved. Disgusted that I had started my day already in the hole with my diet, and relieved that it was not all a dream (because they were really, really delicious and I definitely want them again, just not when I am in a semi-conscious state) Then I thought, Oh, how sweet, Dave must have brought them home for me. But it turns out he thought he was purchasing dark chocolate M&Ms and had opened them, discovered what they were (he hates nuts) and left them on the counter. Oh, well, at least one of us enjoyed them.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Well, to defend myself a little, I felt a little out of control when I decided to get candy. I thought about getting something for you, but then that made me feel guilty that I would be leading you astray as well. I vowed to get candy and eat it before I got home so that you would never know what you missed. However, when I opened the M&Ms and found out they were peanut, I thought you'd like them so I'd just save them for you. I then tried to eat the candy bar on the way home, however, driving and opening a candy bar ended up being too difficult so I didn't eat it until I got home. Overall, it all made me feel even worse as a person. I proved I had no will power for getting the candy in the first place. I proved that I lack awareness by getting candy that I hate. I proved that I am selfish that I got candy for only myself. I led you astray with candy anyway, which made me feel bad. You found out that I didn't get the candy specifically for you which made me feel bad. I lacked the coordination to eat candy while driving. And then I ate an entire candy bar while watching Monk and Modern Marvels. I'm such a stud. My awesomeness just radiates. Its amazing I can walk around without injuring myself.

thedooligans4 said...

Gosh, honey... It's just a stupid blog post. I hope no one takes anything I ramble about seriously. I am still trying to believe that anyone takes the time to read all this baloney I write.
You know I can carry on about practically anything. I am not upset with you for not getting me the candy. I am not upset with you for anything. And I am sure you had the coordination to eat while driving; you just could not do it without getting messy, so you had to make a choice.
I love that you watch super geeky stuff like Modern Marvels. You do radiate awesomeness and I love you very much. I am glad that you struggle with eating as much as I do. I could not stand you if you were perpetually skinny with no effort and nonchalant about food. You just had a bad day and were trying to find comfort in chocolate. TRUST ME, I UNDERSTAND.

Anonymous said...

Geez, guys... that's a lot of moralizing over a few hundred empty calories...

Yesterday it was my Friday, and I got home from work and had angelfood cake with chocolate ice cream AND cream cheese icing, then I continued eating more cream cheese icing out of the container with a spoon... all while watching Scrubs in my underwear (while waiting for the AC to kick in). So there.