Worry

I won't get into any major details (okay, I will ramble on and on because I don't know how to be concise), but I have to go get a scan of my thyroid on Monday. At first, I was more annoyed when they ordered the test because I really wanted to work Monday. Now that I have more details, I just want to hurry up and get the scan over with so I can know what's going on. Lately I have been having some trouble swallowing... it feels like the muscles in my throat are swollen or something. I never mentioned it to the doctor (because I was distracted by my neverending headaches and it didn't seem important.) I got a thyroid ultrasound this week because the doctor felt something during my physical exam, and then the ultrasound showed some enlargement and a nodule on my thyroid. I went back to the doctor today and he explained that depending on how the nodule shows up on the scan, I may or may not have to have it biopsied. Depending on the results of the biopsy, I could be looking at surgery and other treatments. So I am sort of worried. Not too worried, but a little bit.
Also, I have a new doctor. I met with him today for about an hour and I really like him a lot. I am firing my other doctors. (I am sure they really care, right? I hope they find the strength to carry on without me as their patient!) Some changes in my medicines, and he also ordered an MRI of my brain, an echocardiogram of my heart, and a sleep study. I think I got the sleep study partially because he was a little interested in my sleep-eating problem. Plus a whole slew of blood tests. I am sure some of you may have noticed my near constant complaints... been having *some* headaches and fatigue, problems with my vision, and rushing sound in my left ear, and other issues lately. Hopefully some of these tests may provide some sort of solution. But this is what I was saying on here about two years ago... So probably not. But I feel that at least I found a decent doctor. Dave went with me to my appointment and really liked him and felt confident in his opinions also. Anyways, this week I am worried about my thyroid. Last week, I had never given a second thought to my thyroid. Hopefully, by next week, I will return to not worrying about my thyroid. Then I will move on to worrying about my MRI results. I've got to have something to worry about or I'm just not right. What would occupy that mental space if I just stopped worrying? How would I expend my energy? What would motivate me to bite my nails? See, I have to be grateful for all of these new worrying topics that keep coming my way. Life is full of inspiration to fuel my anxiety.