25 Things...

...You Don't Know About Me and Could Go Your Entire Life Without Knowing But I Feel the Need to Share Them With You

1. I keep waiting to feel like a real grown-up.
2. I can take an entire year to read a novel, sometimes waiting a month in between chapters. I will pick it up and put it back down. I will remember all the characters, all the plot. I can recall books vividly long after I've read them. But I can watch a movie and have absolutely no recollection of it. Like the other night, I watched Housesitter with Goldie Hawn and Steve Martin. I have seen that movie several times but it was like watching it for the first time because I could not remember what happened.
3. I hold my breath when I am driving by a cemetary. It is some stupid thing that I started as a child, and I can't seem to stop doing it. I don't even believe in whatever superstition that first prompted me to do this, but even to this day I do it without thinking.
4. I am a selective Starburst eater. Don't ever share a bag of them with me because you will never get your hands on a red or a pink one.
5. I never edit anything I write. Whatever comes out, comes out. Even in college, I would just get it done and I wouldn't fine tune it or revise it at all. Looking back over what I have written gives me a panicky sense of self-doubt and loathing... and I just want to rip it all up and bury the pieces in the trash. That's why I try to write these posts asfastasIcan and then I hit the PUBLISH POST button.
6. I have an enlarged thyroid with nodules on it and it makes my throat hurt and gives me a hoarse voice. Sometimes it is hard to swallow. Sometimes it makes my throat full and I feel like I can't breathe. I can see it sticking out of my neck, and it makes me feel really self-conscious. I find it fascinating that I have had three diagnostic scans/ultrasounds, been to an endocrinologist twice, and have had blood work done repeatedly, and no one has offered any treatment plan for this problem. Yet I can go in to the Dr. for any other thing and they whip their prescription pad out like a gun in a holster.
7. I am secretly quite scared of cats.
8. I have two cats.
9. I stalk the mailbox every Saturday for my USWeekly celebrity gossip magazine. It gives me an inoordinate amount of joy.
10. I always use my parking brake. Even though I now drive an automatic and live in the Land of No Hills.
11. I almost always wear lipgloss or lipstick to bed. I have no idea why I do this. I also can't back my car out of the driveway with naked lips. Must have gloss.
12. I cut my own hair last week. It actually turned out quite nice.
13. I hate McDonald's coffee. I think it smells like rubbing alcohol and sausage biscuits.
14. I have a hard time eating my food if the server has those big stretched out holes in their ears. Tattoos and other piercings, don't bother me much, but I totally lose my appetite with those big gaping ear holes. I just don't understand... why? Why???
15. I want your approval even if I don't like you very much. I don't know why. I just want people to like me even if I don't like them.
16. I think a lot about when the kids leave home. Dave and I will be in our 40s and I think we will have quite a lot of fun. When I am not crying my eyes out over my babies being all grown up and gone to have their own adventures...
17. I think about having a third child every single day. I can write down about 20 reasons why I shouldn't, just off the top of my head, but I still think about it every single day.
18. I am always very chatty and friendly to drive-thru people. I mean, if you're going to see people on a daily basis, you might as well have pleasant interactions, right?
19. I blush easily and I have absolutely no poker face.
20. I have a favorite child. (But it changes from one to the other about every day, so I think it is okay.)
21. I want to own a small boat someday. But I don't want to go fishing. I just want to drive it around the lagoon and look at all of the scenery.
22. I can never keep track of when it is my turn at a board game or a card game. Even if I am just playing with one other person, I sit there like an idiot until the person is forced to say, Um, it's your turn.
23. I love the color blue.
24. I think my kids are extraordinary and I will never be convinced otherwise.
25. I don't like to drive on the interstate. All those cars and semis and motorcycles just hurtling forward so fast... it scares me.