My Appointment

My appointment today went well. I liked the Dr. a lot. He was very kind and a good listener. He ordered more tests. More antibody tests and something to do with muscles. But I think, pending the results of all of these new tests, that he is going to wind up saying I have fibromyalgia, which is much, better than the alternatives. So! He gave me some medicine that is prescribed sort of off label for fibromyalgia. He wanted to give me something to help with my crazy sleep, but I told him I was still nursing. He told me that I need to stop it, in a nice way, of course. I need to wean, and I know I do! My other doctor told me that three months ago. I just don't want to. Also, it just seems so wierd. Like it has been such a huge part of my life for over two years now. I feel like it would be like asking me, could you just stop urinating? Gross comparision, but that's how wierd it seems to me. So I am feeling a little calmer today, and a little more hopeful. I read my blog from last night, and I think I was being a little dramatic. I am just emotionally wrung out from feeling so bad for so many days in a row. But hopefully, with the right medications, I will carry on!